Its not your fault for not knowing, and its my choice for not telling. I'm not gonna bother to break our hearts, neither will I think about you being here for me. I feel lousy right now and Its alright that I am not feeling anything about it, yet. The sourness, the cringe, its not around tonight. I could, if I would, lie around in an empty apartment lying around naked with cigarettes everywhere. Not depress, just lifestyle. Actually, I'm just going to go to bed. I'm not gonna tell you,